Unwanted

“Unwanted” is a poem about being made to feel inadequate while growing up. Originally written in November of 2020.

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I was three years old,

He would sit on the floor

Next to me

And make me cry.

It brought him joy.

I was six years old,

I made a kid cry.

I was proud to be

Just like my dad.

My mother was sad

So I stopped.

I was twelve years old,

He destroyed my things,

Told me he wanted to

Disown me.

I cry alone,

Mom torn between marriage

And child.

I’m almost fifteen,

He yells at me

When he sees

Cuts on my wrists,

“You’ll ruin my reputation!

“Nobody else has a child

“Like you!”

I’m almost fifteen,

I should have been

An abortion.

I am not wanted

By the one who

Created me.

Would he rather I die?

No, it would ruin

His reputation.

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-Graphite Everything